Day 3

7: 38 A.M. 

13^th January

I just closed some Firefox web pages I had opened about an hour ago on Iran-Israel conflict (one of them was actually a research paper in JSTOR) without reading further. Any explanation for this has got to do with the psychological change induced in me after coming back to my room after jogging and doing bit of stretching in the campus’ football field. It may seem hard to imagine by most of the undergraduate students of IIT Kanpur who consistently don't wish a class to be held at 8 A.M.  especially during winters, for the four years of their stay (of course, assuming they give a shit about attending classes) ! Though I am not a UG student anymore, I am myself surprised by this venture which has entered its 3^rd day. You see, it has been more than 2 years now that I have done this kind of thing. I mostly owe my extended lassitude to my sleeping habit in the past which, only about a week ago, has changed and I find it awesome – I take my 6-8 hours of ‘recommended’ sleep from 6 (+/- 30 minutes) p.m. till 2 (+/- 1 hour)  a.m. I not sure how many people have tried it (or were forced to adopt it like me) but it has proved advantageous to me for a variety of reasons:

First things first – I can finally tell my parents, especially my grandmother that I have been taking my breakfast regularly without feeling guilty of lying, which used to be exasperated by thinking how much my parents are concerned about my health and how I am not living up to their expectations. I can talk with my parents on phone without feeling uncomfortable when the conversation tends to transform into an interrogation about my health and my endeavors in keeping it well.

Second, it has a positive effect on my frame of mind. Well, yes, its effects begin to wear off when I read the news (and I want to now quickly stop myself from elaborating this!) or when my thoughts begin to wander towards issues related to our malfunctioning society, but it still feels much better to have significantly more unforced moments of conscious obliviousness to homo sapiens’ crap.  

Third, I have now started going to the library after having my breakfast which, in the past, I didn’t feel like doing. Library is one of the places which, again, seems to have a soothing effect on me under appropriate conditions which I think are very much satisfied at this stage. I need to carry my laptop with me to read soft material related to my research and for searching the relevant ones on the internet but it doesn’t run on battery anymore and so I have to rely on external power. Now, there are not too many ports available in the library for my power cable and even lesser ports which are at locations I prefer to sit (I think those who are/have been frequent visitors of our library must have/have had some preferable/favorite sitting spots) and where the wireless network is strong. Going to the library at such an early time gives me the advantage of being able to locate that place every day now for the past 3 days.

... well I feel hungry now and will end it here. I had quite a few more interesting things to share which I will probably do tomorrow. I also hope to upload some pictures!